TaDaIt'sRadha!’s Neighborhood

It cannot. It'd simply be the biggest case of irony I've ever heard.
I can't get the one thing that I wanted when everything else finally lines up.
It doesn't make sense.

Goodnight.

<3 T.C.

have you ever felt like the passion you once had for things just slowly dissolved its way out of your life? Like its still nice... but it doesn't bring that content feeling into your heart like it used to? or been at that point in life when you have absolutely no idea what you're doing or where you're going? where you realize what you wanted to do isn't really what you want to do anymore? Where you want to find that thing that your just destined to do? That one thing that'll make you completely happy, That'll make you feel like it's what you were made for?

Yea. I'm there.

I'm realligning my target...

&

I'm begging him for answers.

“Why don’t you ever make plans?”

“Well having plans means that I would have expectations and if I have those and things don’t go the way that I want then I’ll just be disappointed and what would be the fun in that.”

What do you do when you turn 19 years of age? You play foozle ball and pool of course. It was a night full of laughter and a great way to start off a birthday. I suck horribly at pool. Foozle ball I don’t think I’m that bad. Me and Miguel make a good team… from what I remember. I still don’t understand how there was a whole thing of cake and everyone kept eating mine.

It was so cute to watch Gabby put up her Christmas tree. She was just so excited. I helped by sitting there and watching E! to be honest can’t wait until Nick Jonas’s new CD. Apparently it’s a new band and everything. That’s good for him. I like his style of writing.

When I finally got home my mom told me she got me something and my first thought was… eh??? I kinda don’t like it when she buys me things because, well, she doesn’t exactly know what I like. So when I get the box and look at it, it says portable TV. I have no idea what I could do with that but it’s always the thoughts that count. I don’t really watch TV, just on weekends and I’m never home on weekends.

My mom left to work early and I started to clean up the house a little. I cleared from bathroom for her, then I swept the kitchen and cleaned the table. After all this I took a long bath and put my sweats on. I went into my room and started changing things around. Pulling down stuff on the walls, putting new things up. I went online and replied to the well wishers. Uploaded photos. You know the usual.

So my mom ended up coming home early from work. Something about having the flu. So when she came I ended up helping her bring her stuff in from the car. I took it to her room and I notice the first thing she does is start messing up the bathroom I had just cleaned that day. And she starts saying something about a missing ring. I dislike jewelry especially diamonds. I guess after 19 years she still doesn’t know this about me. I tell her there was only one ring on the counter and she has it in her hand. She starts going off. I walk out.

In my room basically just staring at my closet door. Maybe it has the answers that I seek? Two full CDs play by the time I took away from it. Something else drew my attention.

“you wanna come over?” I could have cried. After I hung up with Annamae I got up and throw on the first that I saw on my floor. Stuffed some stuff into my bag and went to tell my mom. She acted the way she usually always does when I talk to her. When I was leaving her room I heard a knock at the door. I practically ran towards it, Maemae. As soon as she saw me the first words out of her mouth were “what’s wrong.” now we aren’t really the hugging type of friends but this was a special occasion. I could have cried right there but I don’t like to cry so I sucked it up. It’s my birthday and I’ll cry if I want to.

Library

The first thing Annamae sees fit to do is let me borrow a sack of books. Gosh she knows me so well. Then came the birthday gift. It would have to be the coolest card ever. Is now currently hanging on my wall. But I need to find a better place for it. But when I opened the card that’s when I shed some tears. A picture of me and her… on a gift card for barns and noble. And in that moment i swear we were infinite... & she also got me perfume that smells really good ;]] with a matching lotion that i do plan on wearing a lot. I love that girl so much. i know she feels bad about the whole not being with each other for the entire day but she doesn't get how much it means to me that she was there in that moment when i needed her... in both moments when i needed her.　

Dicks.

it was entertaining. But so loud. I didn't really expect for it to be like that. But i laughed and i sung so i must of been having a good time. I have no idea why but for some reason i couldn't eat. it felt weird. not that the food was gross it just felt weird. i eat all my fries though. i think thats good. but i hate eating around a lot of people. it just grosses me oue. idk sometimes im weird.

The actual Dick.

one day i'll realize that people are never the way they appear.

disappintment...

i just feel so... dumb.

:[

but at the same time i have so much to think about.

my brain sees things that may or may not be there.

i wonder if people see the same things i do?

nope. nope.

it's just me.

is tomorrow =/

F to my L! I pretty much thought it was Saturday, NOPE it's Sunday night. Spent the entirre day with Radha shopping & eating like fatties XD. Good productive (shopping) day :D . Tomorrow will hopefully go by fast. mine & blake's photoshoot for free 99 so that should be a good way to end monday lol.

homework calls my name blahhhhhh.

Gonna put it off tho prllyyyy.

dklfjgdsklgfjhjdgfg plan didnt work out too well. we'll just see how it goes </3.

you get what you want.

"if you know how to just stop liking you, please tell me"

i guess i don't

well you got what you wanted

goodbye

chelseatiberio

I think i've already used that title beeeefore loo :).

I've been EATING like no other dude wtfckkk?! So many dance classes makes me uber hungry & I eat and eat and eat and dont put a pound on thank gahhh. I stepped on Blake's scale and was taken back. After a four day weekend, turkey day, only going to one dance class, and eating like all of my daddy's bread pudding left-overs, I STILL weighed 125. I'd like to think its all muskle :D. Maybe not, but after getting off the pill, I noticed my muscles are getting bigger and i'm getting stonger when we're doing balances en releve. How fun :) & I think i'm getting taller. I stood next to Princess yesterday & noticed it.

OMFG today in council Radha's cup smelled like her, so I put it up to her nose so she could smell it, & I lightly tap her nose to it and she makes this huge scene. A few minutes later, I take a sip outta her cup (without the lip bc you know how I hate germs) & she hits the cup hard, so that ice falls down my neck! SO,  I take the cup, and pour all of it on her and ice goes flyingg everywhere! BAHAHAHAHA. I'm LOL'ing just thinking about it now :DDD. She looked like she pee'd her pants & Mrs. Felkins says "Dang Radha did you get that excited over a Diet Coke?" so funny :) I lahhhh her<3.

This week flew. This weekend will fly tho too.

Go to LV Dance. Get new pointe shoes & new Katrina's

Steph's friend's party sat. night.

Shop with Princess for studco

College apps with Radha afterrrrr.

Fun weekend chaaaa? Let's get it started :D

          It’s never been an easy thing deciphering a woman’s thought, especially for a male, there are always hidden variables that one can never see. As long as man and woman have coexisted no logical practicality has been applied as a solution for the miscommunications between the two, but maybe that’s where the male species are going wrong with things. Maybe logic is where they are going wrong with understanding women. Now the culprit has been indentified, yet what can be done about it. Men have a hard time understanding women, but here are some tips that might help the next time the XX chromosome creature tries to throw you a curve ball. With a little bit of force, some random compliments and an unorthodox technique, communication will increase drastically in your relationship.

            Women get worked up very easily therefore making them very emotion based beings. 78.7% of the time women have some sort of hidden variable that contributes to their actions (GQ Monthly). For example, if she blows up in anger after you ask her, “what’s for dinner,” you have to keep in mind that this eruption of anger is the accumulation of the day she has had. The hidden variables here are: she had her period two days earlier than expected, she gained four pounds over the weekend, and she’s the last of her six childhood friends to get married. Men are just logical, inconsiderate people who assume if there is any deeper issue, she would just openly talk about it. Now before you decide to argue back one must decide, is it really worth it? Men can’t expect women to filter and redirect their misguided anger to the actual problem and talk things out, that just bears too much of a burden on women. The solution is practical and illogical guaranteeing a 100% success rate; beat the truth out of them. Before you criticize and say it’s an unnecessary use of force, let me give you a history lesson on WWII. The Japanese were seen as an opposing force causing unnecessary problems and when no clear-cut, logical solution was within foresight they dropped not only one, but two atomic bombs (a clear use of unnecessary force). Was the U.S. wrong for dropping the atomic bombs, maybe, but they won the war and are now allies with Japan, so who cares. So men, don’t sit there taking an estrogen filled backlash, stand up and let her know her place. 

            Men’s sole reason in a relationship is to make sure she is happy, but that doesn’t necessarily mean he’ll be. Men figure out quite quickly that the odds of them being right in an argument are slim to none. Even if your girlfriend complains about why her professor hates her so much because he gave her a D- on her report of the five planets of the solar system, you have to side with her. In any other circumstances the male would point out the flawed pattern of thought, but if he does, he risks the sanctity of the relationship and he doesn’t want to be that guy. Women cannot handle logic, it just does not compute, but at least women can forgive you when they’re wrong. Even if you make the mistake and tell her there are eight planets in the solar system, not five; and that’s why her professor gave her a D-, there is a way to work around it and make it a win-win. First things first, apologize and agree with her about how her professor somehow has some personal vendetta against her before she goes on how insensitive you are, and then let the compliments unleash. Girls hate it when you disagree with them because they automatically assume you are on their side, so to go against them is blasphemy. When you compliment them you throw a curve ball of your own because women like compliments more than they hate someone disagreeing with them. A compliment throws her off balance and she will stop mid-sentence to analyze what just happened, so if the compliments keep on coming, it will distract her long enough and remind her of how sweet you really are.

Women are illogical beings that can be tamed through illogical and unorthodox techniques. Men have seen the incapability of women to grasp logic, but at this point men have to sink to women’s level. The best way for males to avoid any of the illogical behavior women will try and pull, is to make a bold move from the beginning and mark their territory. That’s right men, urinate on them; whether it is the leg or the face urinating on them will make them your property. This bold, daring move is the revolutionary technique developed by Dr. Wife and Dr. Beater. These men have tested this unorthodox technique and in a study of 100 men going out on their first dates,  99 of the 100 males who peed on their date ended up getting married six months later and the other married a year later. The science behind this is quite simple, it sets the bar of doing something illogical; instantly letting the woman know who is dominant because she acknowledges your superiority.

  So to the prominent couple who hope to make it, you know what you have to do because the secret of a happy marriage will forever remain a secret. If you want to be caring and want to know what is going on with the female figure in your life, beat it out of her; if you want to avoid arguments, compliment her before she nags you to death; and if you want establish dominance in the relationship, well a little pee never hurt anyone. The rest falls on your shoulder, so be logical and be illogical if you wish to communicate with women better.

so i got a shitty truthbox thing, the first one ive ever gotten haha ! it entertained me for a minute hahah !

but its whatever, i got bigger shit to deal with

& i took a step back & i realized Conner has been the one thats been getting me through my shit lately. hes just funny so he gets my mind of the bullshit, & he helps me get through the shit i CANT get my mind off of & i know hes got my back if i need someone. if someone would have told me hed be one of my best friends when we first met, id think they were fucking crazyyyy ! but im glad things are the way they are between us now :] this ese is loco ! & he thinks birds cant smile haha ! i actually wrote him a poem today because i got THAT bored in class haha ! shit was peerrrrtyyy homo ! ahah ! mann oh man ! & plus he keeps me duuuper entertained while im in class & DONT wanna pay attention & hes the only dude i know that would actually get up BEFORE dawn to come with me to the other end of the world juuuuust because :D & hes got maaad art skills :D

the people i love, know who they are. some of them needa get their shit straight, but its ohkaye, i still love them. people go through hard times right? maybe this is one of those, i just hope it ends soon "/ if not, then well everything happens for a reason, every mistake teaches you something, & every hurt makes you stronger.

I wish we could go back to the days when we were younger. Life was easy. Hurt was easily fixed with a bandaid. We didn't drift, we didn't lose people. All we worried about was how long the line for the swing was, and if we would get home before the street lights turned on. We would laugh for hours on the phone. We had multiple families because of continuous sleepovers and get togethers. It was all so harmonious, and all so far from reach.

Blake Marie Bonvicin. I love that you are always by my side and will be there for me when I need it. If not, your mom and dad would :). Defending me when people pop the fck off. I have no idea what I'm going to do when we go our seperate ways for college =/

Princess Radha Sai Inguva. The one who also sticks up for me, makes me laugh like no other when I feel like crap. Will be homo with me :). Wouldnt ever go behind my back for anything including some sorry assk boy. You're a shooting star<3.

Maria Estephania Giraldo. You'll kill a hoe if she ever fcks with me & I know you're a f'real ride or die. I can tell you anything and everything that I'm going through and you'll tell me it's gonna be okay. You'll talk to my boys even if you don't know what to say. I love you and how our friendship has always stayed so strong these past 4 years.

Taylor Nicole Burk. You deserve the world and more. You have the kindest heart, and anyone who has the pleasure of being your friend is truly blessed. I know if I were stuck at his house, you'd be the first one i'd call to come get my assk :).

Mariah River Judd. I'm glad that Backstage brought us together 6 years ago, and we've stayed the best of friends since then. I have the greatest times when I'm with you, and I know your intentions are nothing but the best. We can dance all night, and cry about nothing in the morning while we make videos but I know no matter what, you're there for me.

I cannot imagine my life without any one of you<3.